Assalamualaikum .
Have you ever feel very guilt before? 2 years before, wany ada bestfriend bestfriend yang tak pernah hampakan wany and tak pernah backstab wany. But, with my silly mistake,wany gaduh dgn diaorang and transfer to a new school and find a new friends. I found a friend. I trust her so much and swear not to do the same mistake. I tell her almost everything. I stand up for her. But, when kami dah tak sama kelas,she started to change. She found a new friend. Well, I think they are bestfriend now. Yela, everywhere together. Balik skolah pun together. So, at first bestfriend mana yg tak jeles kan. So, I diam.

One day bestfriend dia tu excident and takdapat nak datang sekolah. And during the period masa bestfriend dia tu tak datang, dia selalu dduk dgn wany and tell alot of things and we act like normal again. But apparently sebaik saja the first day kawan baik dia tu dtg sekolah muka wany pun dia dah taknak pandang. And from that moment I found out yg dia tu dah tak worth it. Dia rapat dgn wany pun because Im totally sure dia nak korek rahsia and make it bad dekat bestfriend baru dia tu. So, wany amek tindakan untuk tidak berkawan dgn orang yg mcm tu.

Then after sebulan kisah ni berlalu, my bestfriend from my ex school yg wany gaduh sampai tukar sekolah and everything tu text me and say how much she miss me. At that point, wany rasa bersalah sgt sebab pernah bergaduh dgn diaorang. Actually gaduh pun sebab taknak dia ke jalan yg salah. Ada lah misunderstanding sikit membuatkan kami bergaduh. Now, walaupun dah berbaik balik everytime when we jumpa balik. Everything is different. I feel like im an outsiders dari diaorg. I dont know a thing about what they are talking about and I feel like a stranger.

From now on, I make a promise to not to do that again and to be very carefull bila nak cari teman. Now, my only bestfriend is my only boyfriend. I hope he didn't leave me too.

What do you do when the person that you trust and love betrayed you? Should you forgive them or should you just leave?

Assalamualikum  :)

Lamanya tak post. Dulu,susah sgt nak update kat blog ni. Now,SPM DAH HABIS !!! soooo,insyaallah wany akan mula aktifkan diri dalam blog ni. I like to like diaries actually,I started wrote it since I was 12. But sometimes I just like to share and maybe boleh jd inspiration kpd some readers. [entah ada org baca ke tak pun tk tahu laa] *sedih* . But, if there is someone who read jgn ketawa eyk. Cause i'm like talking to myself here.

Okey back to the story wany. Haihhh,SPM dah habis seminggu yg lepas. Why I still use the *haihhh...* word. I should be enjoying. Now,I need to sedar yg I ni dah besar. Need to be indipendent dah. Ni,nak g ambil lesen kereta pun takut lagi. How am I suppose to go further studies nanti. OMG!

Lepas SPM ni mcam mcam masalh timbul. Semuanya psal individu yg mahu mncari kesalahan dan kelemahan wany. Wany ni terlalu lembut untuk fight back. Make me feel soo stupid kot. Macam senang ja semua orang pijak kepala wany. Mcm mna nak jd pemimpin ni?

Sometimes apa yang kita nak turn out into apa yg kita taknak. I belive in love-hate story I think. I think its kindda happen to me :)

You see, I met this guy. The weird thing is, bila kali pertama kami jumpa saat mata kami memandang each other theres something macam electromagnet yg kami dapat rasa. You know,rasa macam eh, I met this guy and keep thinking dekat mana ? The question still menjadi tanda tanya antara kami berdua.

Luckily he's kindda friendly guy. He is a friendly guy especially to women. For a women like me memang susah nak tackel and I sendiri don't know why? But he, mcm petik jari ja dah boleh tackle me. But, unfortunately at first I kindda tak suka dengan perangai dia maybe. You know,kindda naughty, suka ejek org especially menyakitkan hati aku is llike pro to him.

One day, I lawan balik bila dia buat perangai and I think because of it I  slowly loosing him.